I really try to understand her but sometimes relationships with moms are just difficult. Especially with my mom. Sometimes she’s just so self-absorbed. I’d talk to her if I could but that would be an endless futile attempt because I can never get the right words to use. Explaining what she makes me feel is a task I’d rather skip. Jeff would tell me all the time that she’s getting old and I should just understand her and ignore it. The feeling of annoyance would eventually go away. It gets me through the day somehow. But sometimes I feel alienated. And yet she questions me why I never open up to her. This is exactly the reason why. She’s judgmental, she’s controlling. Self righteous. I can never get it right by her. Ever.